[Concrete_Angel]

I am asking here due to the fact that there aren't any guys to chime in telling me to just get over it, or saying that woman are just weak minded and convience themself that they are ill. I'm a very private person and don't usually tell all, even to those close to me....

I'm not even sure if I am depressed or if I'm just "~CRAZY~"

A few details as to my state of mind lately:

I, should say that I haven't seen a doctor, nor has there been any reason to yet, in many ways I'm doing okay and am fine, then BOOM something clicks/snapps in my head and I become very irate, (never towards my children though) I get very paranoid, and feel ....well herein lies the problem I don't really know what I feel anymore...the best way I can describe it is just plain ole confussion.

Even as I type these words, I can't help but feel like, I'm just waisting my time, and that it's my problem I shouldn't bother you ladies with it, or that you all will think I'm just silly...And I'm not exactly sure how to make anyone understand through words, how I feel, even to a doctor which is why I have yet to go see one.( I, don't want to be a test patient)

I don't want people to think I'm crazy, I don't know exactly what else to say other than I'm just sick and tired of feeling sick and tierd, most of the anger is directed towards my husband, and probably rightly so as he tends to deserve it MOST of the time, then there are times when I actually feel bad for him.

So my question is, when is it time to get help, does this happen to anyone else, and have any of you had any experience with anti depressants?? Is it just a phase, could it be that I may be starting menapause at the age of 33??I, can't for the life of me figure out what the problem is, it's just like someone else takes over my body, thoughts and actions for short periods of time, and usually after I feel very stupid for reacting in such a manner.

It's like something inside me won't allow me to be happy for an entire day, without something making me angry, sad, and very puzzled. I feel like I have PMS every day of my life!!!! And it sux big time!!! I'm also becomming more and more forgetfull, I am destracted easily, and I overthink and analyze every thing.... And it's very embarracing to set here and type this knowing that you all are perfect strangers to me in a sense, and now will look at me like I'm just a fruit loop! But if at least one responce, can assure me that I'm not alone or that any of you have actually had simmular thoughts/moods then it was worth risking looking stupid.
What's wrong with me, am I crazy, am I depressed, or am I seriously about to have a complete nervous breakdown?? I apolagize for being so whiney, but appreciate y'all taking time to read this and I would appreciate any responces good or bad...

[ttuPrincess]

babe rest assure you are not alone at all.. in anyway..

it sounds exactly like how i was when i was diagnosed bipolar.. and with your sleep cycles, its following a pattern to be as such

try some St john's Wart pills for a few weeks and see if they balance you back out, or atleast help.

Im here for you hunny! I love you!

[Effie_drine]

What Every Woman Should Know About Depression!

Life is full of emotional ups and downs. But when the "down" times are long lasting or interfere with an individual's ability to function, that person may be suffering from a common, but serious psychological problem - depression

Clinical depression affects your physical well-being, resulting in chronic fatigue, sleep problems, and changes in appetite. It affects your mood, with feelings of sadness, emptiness, hopelessness and dysphoria. It affects the way you think, interfering with concentration and decision making. And, it affects your behavior, with increased irritability and loss of temper, social withdrawal, and a reduction in your desire to engage in pleasurable activities. Research indicates that in the United States more than 17 million people experience depression each year, and nearly two thirds do not get the help they need. Proper treatment would alleviate the symptoms in over 80 percent of the cases. Yet, because depression is often unrecognized, depressed individuals often continue to suffer needlessly.

Women are almost twice as likely as men to experience depression. Research continues to explore how this psychological problem affects women. At the same time, it is important for women to increase their awareness of what is already known about depression, so that they seek early and appropriate treatment.


What is Depression?
Depression is a "whole-body" illness, involving your body, mood, and thoughts. It affects the way you eat and sleep, the way you feel about yourself, and the way you think about things. A depressive disorder is not the same as a passing blue mood. It is not a sign of personal weakness or a condition that can be willed or wished away. People with depression cannot merely "pull themselves together" and get better. Without treatment, symptoms can last for weeks, months, or years. Appropriate treatment, however, can help most people who have depression.

The symptoms of depression vary from person to person, and the intensity of the symptoms depends on the severity of the depression. Depression causes changes in thinking, feeling, behavior, and physical well-being.

There are three primary types of depression: Major Depression; Dysthymia; and Bipolar Depression. In addition to these primary depressions, many people also develop a "reactive depression," which may be less severe, but still requires psychological treatment. A reactive depression occurs when you develop many of the symptoms of depression in response to the stress of a major life problem, but they are not severe enough to be considered a major depression. If these milder symptoms of depression occur without a clear life stress as the cause, and the depression has not lasted long enough to by considered dysthymia, then it is called an Unspecified Depression. Other depressions may be caused by the physiological effects of a medical condition, or by substance abuse. The specific depression label, beyond the three primary types of depression and reactive depression, will not be reviewed here.

Major depression - Also known as unipolar or clinical depression, people have some or all of the depression symptoms listed below for at least 2 weeks or as long as several months or even longer. Episodes of the illness can occur once, twice, or several times in a lifetime.

Dysthymia - The same symptoms are present. However they are usually milder, but last at least two years. People with dysthymia also can experience major depressive episodes.

Manic-depression - This is also called bipolar disorder. This type of depression is not nearly as common as other forms of depression. It involves disruptive cycles of depressive symptoms that alternate with euphoria, irritable excitement, or mania.

The Symptoms of Depression
You should talk to a psychologist for an evaluation, if you experience several of the following symptom clusters, and the symptoms persist for more than two weeks, or if they interfere with your work or your family life. However, not everyone with depression experiences all of these symptoms, and the severity of the symptoms also varies from person to person.

Depression

Persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" mood
Loss of interest or pleasure in your usual activities, including sex
Restlessness, irritability, or excessive crying
Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness, hopelessness, pessimism
Sleeping too much or too little, early morning awakening
Appetite and/or weight loss or overeating and weight gain
Decreased energy, fatigue, feeling "slowed down"
Thoughts of death or suicide, or suicide attempts
Difficulty concentrating, remembering, or making decisions
Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders, or chronic pain


Your not alone, fell free to chat with us about anything. My docotor gave me this info, which helped me alot. I hope it has the same effect on you.

[Concrete_Angel]

Thanks ladies for the responces, and thanks for listening/reading, sometimes it just helps to put it out there, I guess so we don't feel so alone.

Effie, wow, that's a very great post and I thank you for sharing it with me.

[Naughty Nurse]

CA, as I read your post it seems like I typed it myself! Really, I am in the same boat as you. I don't know what may have triggered yours, but I'm certain mine was the very stressful time I've gone through with my son and various other things all going wrong at the same time. I never went to the doc, thinking I'll just deal with it....until she brought it up and I broke down in her office, and that's when it hit me that I really was depressed. I've now been on Wellbutrin for about a month, and I do think I feel better.....not cured, but improved.

[hardcurves]

depression! is not fun i've had it for long time off and on do to meds.and a bad back. good luck with getting help if you need it.

[Liftingchic]

Hun... you aren't alone thats for sure.. i totally know what you are going through... I really would go to the doctor if i was you... It can only help you hun..

[Concrete_Angel]

Originally Posted by Naughty Nurse

CA, as I read your post it seems like I typed it myself! Really, I am in the same boat as you. I don't know what may have triggered yours, but I'm certain mine was the very stressful time I've gone through with my son and various other things all going wrong at the same time. I never went to the doc, thinking I'll just deal with it....until she brought it up and I broke down in her office, and that's when it hit me that I really was depressed. I've now been on Wellbutrin for about a month, and I do think I feel better.....not cured, but improved.

I'm sorry for anyone who ever has to feel like this, Naughty Nurse...it is a very sad and lonely place to be..I feel so isolated at times..it's scary to say the least, but I thank you all for the kind words and helpfull insight..I appreciate it.

Sometimes I think I'm not crazy or depressed I'm just married!! that's my problem Lol!

[Naughty Nurse]

Originally Posted by Concrete_Angel

Sometimes I think I'm not crazy or depressed I'm just married!! that's my problem Lol!

lmfao!!! With children!

[Concrete_Angel]

Originally Posted by Naughty Nurse

lmfao!!! With children!

You said it sista!